2015 reflections

It’s 1 December, 2015. In 30 days time, we’ll be seeing in the new year, and Christmas looms before that. Queen’s ‘Live at Wembley Stadium’ plays in the background as I write. It’s one of my favourite Queen albums, and one of their final performances on the ‘A Kind of Magic’ tour and indeed one of their final performances before the death of Freddie in 1991. Nothing changes.

Well, I say nothing changes. But that, in fact, couldn’t be further from the truth. This post is in fact a reflection of change. A major change in my life that began with a decision on this date last year as I traveled back from London in a taxi.

Today marks 1 year to the day when, on December 1st 2014, I made the decision to put my career as a computer programmer behind me and pursue my dream of becoming a musician and writer. It was far from a snap decision. In truth, it had been in the back of my mind since I began to realise success in both fields, thanks to the success of my music/audio blog (Audio Appraisal) and an ever-growing portfolio of musical collaborations and projects. The monetary value of my previous profession held me back, but as the end of 2014 neared and my seemingly incurable depression reached an all-time high, I quickly learned that money simply can’t buy you happiness.

Looking back on the last 12 months, I can honestly say that this decision has not only had a profound effect on my life as a whole, but also on my general wellbeing and happiness. Over the last 12 months I’ve made huge strides in conquering my depression, re-gaining some of the confidence I’ve lost in recent years and doing my best to become a better version of me. I’ve also come to terms with an eating disorder and gained a greater understanding of my lifelong disability. And, as if that weren’t enough, both my musical and journalistic careers have taken off with my various blogs becoming more successful than I could ever have imagined, and my musical portfolio continuing to grow at a steady but sustainable pace.

I’m not one for soppy posts, and this is no exception. This isn’t intended as a sob story; rather it’s a lesson to everyone out there – and if not a lesson, perhaps just some food for thought. While major life changes, particularly those involving your career or livelihood certainly shouldn’t be taken lightly, change is not something that should be feared. Instead, change is something that should be embraced. If there’s something in your life that you’re not content with, whether that be your career, a mental illness such as depression or anxiety, or an inability to come to terms with who you are, now is the time to take action. There really is no time like the present. You may just find, as I did, that change is for the better.

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